i want

This is what I think about when I get stressed out:

I want it to be Summer.
Like, no worries or concerns and everyday on the beach, sunbathing and cuddling with my boyfriend. I want to hear the ocean and drink Coca-Cola out of glass bottles and read a book and listen to good, happy, carefree music. I want to take in all that God has made. Clear skies, windy beaches, the hot sun, the freezing cold, salty water. I want it all! Hammocks, BBQ's, hiking, lazy days by the pool! Sun tan lotion on my nose, natural sun bathed highlights in my hair, popsicles, and playing in the water!

I want it to be Fall.
Except for no nursing school, and crisp mornings and sweaters and jeans and boots and leaves and hats. Flannel! I want to be a kid and roll around I leaf piles and have a bonfire and get lost in a corn maze with my love and laugh and laugh and laugh. I want to carve pumpkins and roast marshmallows and breathe in the cold air. I want rosy cheeks and long hair! I want to just lay on the cushioned ground and look at the bare trees and see the sky and forget about everything. I want to go on a gorgeous bike ride and see all of the colors of the leaves that are left.

I want it to be Winter!
Snow, snow, snow, snow. I miss it. I want snow, and fireplaces, and the smell of burning wood and marshmallows and hot chocolate and Christmas. I want to build an igloo and throw snowballs and get bundled up and then warm myself by a fire. I want to cuddle up with my Nate and drink hot cider and eat stew and tell each other stories. I want to go outside and see the snow falling in the woods at night, and around the street lamps and secretly long for somewhere like Narnia!

Spring.
I want the green, and the flowers, and some rain, but not all of it that we usually get. That's about all for spring. ;)

I want the best of all 4 seasons all the time. I wish I could do that. It'd be a weird power, but it would make me a very happy person. BOOM! Snow. BAM! Leaves and pumpkins. Actually, more realistically, if I could find somewhere where it was Fall year round, I'd be the happiest woman in the galaxy. I have a feeling that is what Heaven will be like for me. Fall all the time. I can't even describe it. It just FEELS different! The air is cool, but not freezing, and the smells that come out are clean and deep and pure and at the same time like clove, and cinnamon, and woodsy. Warm sweaters and colors and family. It's just the perfect time of year! I want all of that right now.

Hand holding with Nate, open window car rides and bike rides and perfect weather. My smile would be infinite.