my gap is no more!

I got my gap fixed today :)

 

Before

After!

I'm pretty flipping happy about it. I have a super white area where they filled the gap in, but they told me that if I bleached it a little bit it will blend right in, so I hope so!

I get to eat pasta tonight and kinda cheat on my diet. Also, nursing homework later!

bleh.

Good day ---> Bad night.

At least I get to get my teeth fixed today. Maybe that will help my confidence somewhat.

whitening teef is wut?

Ow-ch. in preparation for my new pearly whites (gap closing session TOMORROW! Eek!), I was told that it was a good idea to whiten my teeth to how I want them to be before bonding. This is because the whitening afterwards will not whiten the bonding, so I said, ok, I'll make them really white and then I'll just keep up with that every 6 months or so. No big deal right?

Wrong.

I got this teeth whitening stuff by Opalescence. I am supposed to wear it in a tray for 2-4 hours per the manufacturers instructions. Now, don't get me wrong, this stuff works like magic! In 2 hours my teeth were at least a few shades whiter, but oh man. The pain that my teeth were in. I brushed my teeth at around 3 AM, and man. The worst pain I have ever felt! Sensitivity is to be expected, but dude. This was no sensitivity. In fact, my teeth felt BETTER when introduced to hot stuff. That's no sensitivity.

I made my brother go to the store and get me some Sensodyne, which helped pretty much nil. So then I went and got some extra strength big daddy guns Orajel. It was green and I was rocking a fierce monster face.

That helped a little, but guh. I was drooling everywhere. It was hot. 8|

Anyway, I had been up for like 30 hours or something by noon, so I was flipping exhausted, but my teeth hurt just so bad! Finally the pain started to subside and after around 7 pm, I passed out. Like, dropped in the bed and was out before I even hit the pillow. My phone wasn't on silent and Nate called me like 4 times and I STILL didn't hear it if that gives you any idea of the amount that I was exhausted.

Anyway, lesson learned. If you're going to gel whiten your teeth with a 20% solution, do it for 30 minutes and work yourself up. Guhhhh.

I am so excited for new teeth tomorrow! Also, I can't wait to see Nathan. I think we are going to go to a cornmaze and carve plampkins (pumpkins) and be lovey and stuff because I miss him.

Also, thanks for prayers to every soul out there who took the time for me. I think I did at least okay on my pharmacology test. :)

Also, Also, I just had a dream that I was part of the SVU team and Olivia and Stabler and Ice-T was there and Stephen King was too and he was really nice and we were catching bad guys.

songs and pharmacology

I am supposed to be studying, but... I did for like 2 and a half hours and I need a break.

Boyfriend sent me this song and I super like it. It's sweet and pretty and I've listened to it like 150 times already.

It's the prettiest.

Anyway! I got my consult and I'm getting my teeth fixed Monday! Gulp! I'm so excited/scared. It helps to have a supportive boyfriend. I just hope I don't have bunny teeth afterward...

I was looking at really old (February of this year. Not too old, but how time has passed!) Facebook messages between me and Nathan and we were silly. I am so glad that we love each other and we don't have to say "I like you" anymore. I am the happiest I have ever been. God has sure blessed this girl :)

teef.

I forgot to say that I was going in for a consult to get my teeth fixed on Wednesday! SO EXCITED!

It's been a "thing"of mine for a long time. My gap. We are not friends and never will be. It hogs all of my photos and forces me to keep my mouth shut. Every time I look at a picture of myself, it's all that I can see! Everyone says it's "no big deal" and "you can't even see it!" but it's like when you have a big giant zit on your face and it's all you can focus on. I can't stand it! Partially I feel like I will look unlike myself without it since it's been a part of my smile for 25 years, but the other part of me can't wait to beam a smile and not have to worry about that big giant crack in the middle of my mouth! Anyway, I am going to go see how much it will cost. Let's pray it's not too much!

*not my mouth, but it's an idea.