time...

It seems like there isn't enough time in the day while at the same time, sometimes at least, there is all the time in the world.

It seems that it was October and then I blinked and when I opened my eyes it was December. It's awesome and bad at the same time. I feel rushed. I leave for New York Tuesday morning and I haven't had a chance to pack yet! It doesn't seem so bad, but I have to work all day tomorrow, wrap a few presents that I haven't gotten to yet, and drive 2 hours back home to spend the night so that it will be easier to leave to go to the airport in the morning. Oy.

I am excited though. I don't really like planes though, which is weird because I didn't have a problem with them until a trip (which I can't even remember which one it was or how long ago, weird) but we hit turbulence and I thought I was going to have a heart attack and teet in my pants I was so scared. Now when I board a plane, I am grasping the seat for dear life the entire flight. I pray and pray and pray and pray. It's just not the way I want to go. You know, screaming in terror and being able to realize my horror before I either get crushed to death or burn alive in an airplane explosion or suffocate going hundreds of miles per hour, miles in the sky. No thanks. BUT, that being said, I am SO very excited to share New York with Nate. I have never been into the city myself. It's always been the Island. So, this time, we are going to spend a majority of time on the Island, but we are going to be brave tourists and venture into the city for the day. Hot dog vendors, THE TREE, (maybe) iceskating, photos, shopping... all of it! It will be fun, I think. Even if we get lost, it will be a fun story later...

I still have a little "cold", although it has gone from my throat into my sinuses and now I can't breathe. It probably didn't help that I went home this weekend and because my mom is in mid-move, my bed was gone. I had to make a makeshift bed on the ground with blankets. Kind of like camping, except more like what I imagine jail cots are like, except worse. And I kept waking up gasping for breath in the middle of the night because my mouth would close or I would wake up drooling all over myself OR I would be in pain and need to roll over because my prison cot felt like a prison shiv in my back.

Anyway, I'm excited. No work, no school, no worries and lots of boyfriend and family time for 6 days. I can't wait!

christmas break!

I feel like I'm 14 (or any age below like, 18) again and school has let out! Except for now I have to work a full-time job until school starts back... but no bother! For in 4 days I will be on a plane to Long Island the visit family and venture into the city with my sweetest boyfriend and brother (I know I wrote that last time). My tonsils are real big and hurting at my head has that "sick" feeling this morning. At least it held off until after finals, right?

I better get ready for work.

tomorrow

Tomorrow is the last day of my first semester of nursing school. I have learned a lot, both academically and about myself. I learned that it is very possible for me to cave under pressure, that I stress eat/sleep, that crying is not beneath me, that sometimes C's are okay if that's what you get after studying for hours on end, that friends who are struggling with you are the best kind of support, that good teachers make all the difference, and I have learned to appreciate every moment with people in your life during free time (which is very little). In my short 2 clinicals I learned that older people need compassionate people to care for them, and that state run nursing homes need to be regulated better. The things I saw broke my heart. Maybe one day I can help change some of that. I am so excited about next semester! OB, med/surg, and mental health! I feel like this will be a hard semester, but it will be one of my favorites because the material is so interesting!

I should be studying pharmacology. I really should. I will, I just can't seem to cram anymore information about drugs into my brain at the moment. I also have an interview for my internship at Athens Regional for the summer tomorrow. I hope I do well!

I get to go to New York on Tuesday with my brother and my love! I am so so so excited! Depending on when Nathan's last present gets here (it better get here soon...) that's when we will do our Christmas. So maybe Monday, or maybe we will wait until Christmas. I just can't wait!

So many things are happening to people around me (in good ways) and I am just so happy for it! Engagements, babies, work being found, better grades... life is good :) As always I'm still very blessed to have the most supportive boyfriend in the entire world ever. He's carried me through some tough times this semester and I love him even more for it. His encouragement keeps me going when all I want to do is cry and give up. I love him to death!

I'm going to try and study now...

increased sleep latency = pinterest, blogging, & netflix

Well, actually it isn't increased latency if it's just disrupted sleep patterns which is very much what it is. I just went to bed at 9, woke up at 11 something, and I have my very first ever nursing clinical at 7 in the morning. Will I get ANY sleep? Perhaps. Maybe in an hour or two my circadian rhythm will kick back into "oh crap, you're supposed to be asleep" mode and I'll hit the pillow and make some Z's in sleepytown. Probably not.

Nursing school is... stressful still, but I am FINALLY getting into the swing of things. I think in the past two weeks I will have taken 3 tests, done my first clinical (STRESS CITY), written 3 papers, practiced for finals, and all the while maintaining a relationship with my Nathan and a part time job that gives me more hours than I could possibly want. I am relieved though, that I am officially going into finals with B's in ALL of my nursing classes. I don't know what is going to happen, but I have been praying, and God has carried me through this semester at my hardest points, and I know that he will continue to carry me through if it is what I am supposed to do.

My Grandmother and Dad are coming down from New York to say hello and to pack all of my Dad's stuff to move to New York and then Nathan, my brother, and I are going up to New York in December. Too many New York's.

Nathan and I went to this really good pasta place tonight called Mirko. It has homemade pasta and sauces and it was delish! Definitely will be going back again!