Stress!

This month has been so stressful! So much going on outside of Nathan's and my control. One of the things I am trying to learn is giving up control, but it is hard. Very hard!

I am so glad and blessed that I have Nathan to help me through things and I hope he feels the same about me. Our pre-marital counseling is helping us so much. We are learning so much about each other and are beginning to communicate with each other right. I feel a lot better knowing that a lot of our problems are not us and just family things out of our control, from both sides, and we have seen a lot of that this month. As our counselors said "this is marital stuff that you're dealing with" and we are making it, which makes me happy :)

That being said, anytime things want to let up and be a little easier, they're more than welcome to!

I am excited about Thanksgiving and delicious food and love and being with Nathan. Then Christmas! Oy! Nathan is taking me to The Fox to see The Nutcracker (I can't remember if I wrote that or not) and we are going to get dressed up and have a wonderful night!

School is almost over (pending 2 projects, an event no one will go to, 1 paper, and 3 finals). Then I'll have basically a month off total until I'm done with school! I remember starting a year ago... So crazy!

Last year was the start of the rest of my life! I met my future husband, started my schooling to my future career, been through some trials that made me stronger, made some decisions that lead me down a path that I really feel that is right for me.

I can't wait to be a wife, a mother, a successful nurse! I can't wait to have a home to call my own and grow with Nathan. I have met my husband...

That still seems SO unreal to me. After "looking" for what seems like forever, I found him. I mean as a girl you grow up thinking about your prince and then your hero who is going to whisk you up and save you from your adolescent "terrible" life, and then a MAN who will treat you right and be a good husband, and FATHER. How our views change as we grow... but they all revolve around a search for your mate. And I've found mine.

I've never been at this level of comfort with anyone. I've never been at this point of "I never want to look at anyone else" or imagine myself with someone greater, because he is the best. When we have petty arguments that will be over in minutes or sometimes hours, I have to remember that. This is my future husband. He's The One. The one that God set in my life! It wasn't easy to get to where we are and I guess it makes sense that it won't really ever be easy. But how worth it is it at the end of the day when you know you're with the right person and you're so blessed and you realize that you'd do anything to keep them? It's worth everything.

Kind of random, but it's something I had been thinking about.