Hot Cocoa

Only mostly because it's chocolate. I'm actually sweating here...

I have a test in Med Surg today, fighting off my UC/stress induced stomach problems, and I can't wait to be comforted by my sweet, handsome, wonderful fiancé tonight!

I haven't weighed myself because it scares me. Even if I eat little things I end up running to the bathroom :( I am taking vitamins to help my body get the nutrients it needs, but I still worry. It's kind of silly how hard I was trying to lose weight, an now I am worried about it. I guess because it's not because of a healthy way that I am losing it :( I have to wait until December until I can go to the doctor :( Even then, money isn't exactly growing on trees, so I'm concerned about paying for everything. God will provide!

I need my fiancé's strong arms around me and to hear his reassurance in my ears! It's wonderful to have your best friend as a fiancé and for him to be so understanding and accepting, especially of my pretty embarrassing health problems. He asks me all the time how I am doing and how I am feeling, and it really makes me feel loved.

I am so upset that whatever I was ill with over a month ago caused this flare up :( I don't know what I had, but I felt terrible and then my belly was never the same. Probably the stress of being in nursing school doesn't help matters any either. I can't win!

I ask for prayers for healing and for luck on my test!