Diva

I have taken a great interest in fashion and hair and nails and makeup lately. I enjoy being feminine lately. Dresses, nail painting, trying different things with my hair and makeup. It feels fun, and I think I am finally out of my rut where I didn't care what I looked like for the longest time. I want to look good for my boyfriend, which in turn makes me want to look good for me. It's a lovely change.

I look at old blogs and see how far I've come. I promised myself on Valentine's Day in 2010 that I would not pursue a man, that I wanted one to pursue me. I lived up to that promise, and I met a man who likes me very much for me, and I never had to beg him to like me. Although we haven't dropped the "L" bomb yet, I feel it's presence creeping up on us, slowly, but surely. I realized then that I NEEDED God, and my faith, and I have lived by that ever since and have not faltered from that. I have put more faith into God than I have in my whole entire life, and he has done nothing less than reward me for it. I love Him. I promised then that I would not have sex again until I am married. I have also stood by this promise, and my boyfriend respects it as well. We are together knowing that it isn't for sex, and that is a wonderful thing. On that same day I also promised that I would not date anyone who didn't love God, and that has worked out as well. This man and I are learning and finding out so many things about each other and I love it. He has made me pray hard to God through trials, and I have led him to God through his own troubles. Last but not least, I wanted to live Christ-like. Although I try to do this, I fail at times, but I know that I cannot give up because of things that happen. All in all, I have lived a more supportive and positive life, and I feel that is Christ-like.

I have also been on a weight kick, eating smaller portions and eating healthier. When I went to the doctor in April, I weighed 150 (probably more, but I think I lied to myself and said 150). I was tired of looking at myself in the mirror (naked) and feeling ashamed and gross. I am down to 138 right now, and I'm still working on it. :) I'm thankful for that. Determination and hard work is... hard.

Tonight though, I throw my diet to the side, and I get to have a real dress up dinner date with my sweet boyfriend. He starts his new job today, so he is going to stay dressed up, and I am going to GET dressed up (after I have my Spanish II class), and we are going to eat some delicious food and enjoy each other.

I move to Athens in less than a month.
Nursing will be my only classes left to take.
In 2 years, I will be an RN.

Time to get ready for things.