the best

I had the best day! I always have the best days when I can be with Nate, especially when they are impromptu dates! He always makes me the happiest and I can forget all of my troubles when I'm with him. He's simply the sweetest man!I love talking with him and hugging him and just BEING with him. I have been blessed.

mullets

I had a rough night filled with anxiety, depression, stomach troubles, irritation, and sadness. Nursing school will be the end of me. No reason in particular besides the fact that I have some big decisions to make. I think it just hit me last night that I really am going to have to sacrifice time in my dearest relationships to make it in nursing school, and that really weighs heavy on my heart. I thought I'd be able to juggle a boyfriend and friends and family and nursing school. I've already cut out friends, and family time is at a minimum, and now I really am going to have to cut into boyfriend time, especially for next semester. It is... extremely difficult. It breaks my heart. The things that keep me sane distract me from school, and if I don't pass then I'll be a mess. But if I have to greatly reduce boyfriend time, which could automatically be worse next semester due to his job, then I'll just be depressed all the time. I don't know what to do.

It really seems that nothing is in my favor lately, and that makes me so truly sad. All of the things I want to happen just aren't, and it's killing me. My morale in school is shot for multiple reasons, I'm broke, burnt out, and having stress related to other things in life that are out of my control. I don't know what to do. I haven't been in this place in a long time.

Anyway, I got a 4 week trim, so I don't have a mullet anymore. I'm 4 weeks closer to growing this thing out.

Pray for me please.

boyfriend face & music & cupcakes

I kept waking up all night. Such is the problem with nursing school. My stress level has been over 9000 since starting this semester. I wake up all the time, at all hours, with bizarre dreams. Can I not express how much I need for this semester to be over?! Prayers prayers prayers.

Last night I got to see (and kiss!) my boyfriend's naked face since he shaved his beard off. It was weird and wonderful at the same time.

counting down

As of midnight, I will have a week of school left, including finals!

I am praying so hard to be able to pass med surg, so any positive thoughts and prayers that anyone can spare and send my way I will be eternally grateful!

Nathan shaved his face today! Which might not sound like a big deal, but he hadn't shaved in in 8 years and he did it because I wanted to see his face! ;) He's so handsome!