mullets

I had a rough night filled with anxiety, depression, stomach troubles, irritation, and sadness. Nursing school will be the end of me. No reason in particular besides the fact that I have some big decisions to make. I think it just hit me last night that I really am going to have to sacrifice time in my dearest relationships to make it in nursing school, and that really weighs heavy on my heart. I thought I'd be able to juggle a boyfriend and friends and family and nursing school. I've already cut out friends, and family time is at a minimum, and now I really am going to have to cut into boyfriend time, especially for next semester. It is... extremely difficult. It breaks my heart. The things that keep me sane distract me from school, and if I don't pass then I'll be a mess. But if I have to greatly reduce boyfriend time, which could automatically be worse next semester due to his job, then I'll just be depressed all the time. I don't know what to do.

It really seems that nothing is in my favor lately, and that makes me so truly sad. All of the things I want to happen just aren't, and it's killing me. My morale in school is shot for multiple reasons, I'm broke, burnt out, and having stress related to other things in life that are out of my control. I don't know what to do. I haven't been in this place in a long time.

Anyway, I got a 4 week trim, so I don't have a mullet anymore. I'm 4 weeks closer to growing this thing out.

Pray for me please.