Summer is dwindling...

My summer is almost at an end. I don't want it to.
I got engaged to the most wonderful, caring, sweetest, most awesome man God could have ever placed with me. I got a job, I'm passing my classes, I've found out a lot about myself, and Nathan and I together, I've taken little trips, I've spent time with both sides of my family (forever family and future family!), I've laughed a lot and cried, I've lost hair from stress and I've been overjoyed with happiness. I've had the most fun planning for our wedding. The best nights for us are productive ones. My favorite are when we are at home, relaxing with each other, making bunting or looking at wedding things, and talking about everything under the sun and listening to Chet Baker and cooking dinner and dancing in the kitchen together. I love it!

Not saying that will end when summer does, but summer is a lot more peaceful than my fall, spring, and following summer will be. I normally hate the summer. And while I am not fond of the heat, I don't hate it as much. I guess I'm more comfortable with Nathan, even sweaty and without makeup and funky from being in the sun. Who knows?

I still have leaps and bounds to make for myself and for us as a married couple, and we do together, but we will do it. We both can't wait to make a home with each other, high in the mountains in a rugged little cabin with a tin roof. I can't wait to be married and sleep with my best friend every night. Kisses in the morning and when I shut my eyes to dream at night. I can't wait to have a little porch to sit out on with my husband and listen to him play guitar and sing songs unwritten and read together and enjoy each other in our peace and quiet before babies come. I can't wait to go to marriage counseling and do things right. The thought of coming home to Nathan every night and seeing those kind eyes and feeling those arms around me every single night makes me feel on top of the world, and I yearn for that! I have no patience when it comes to my future happiness with my husband!

Looking back on past blogs makes me smile. Hoping for another date with him and meeting his friends for the first time. Now we are planning a wedding. We have made it through some tough times, and I'm sure we will make it through some more. (Although I pray for clear skies and easy times for awhile.)

I guess with the closing of summer brings in the beauty of fall, which is my favorite blessing. Even though I'll be in school, I want to go camping, pick pumpkins, take engagement pictures, get lost in a corn maze, visit our coffee shop, roll in the leaves, take in the beauty. I want to visit the mountains and light a fire and sing and be held. I want lots of time with Nathan :)

I want to go to church every Sunday and sing and give thanks. I want to tithe and pray. I want our foundation to be based on faith in God. I want to grow this year.

My birthday is next month and I'll be 26. After that 27. Then 30, then 40, then 75. It goes by so fast. I am more and more trying to do things with my love and with my days because I do realize that I'm only young once. I want to take everything in. In the end, I want to have made a difference. In my own life, with my babies, in my husband's life, and strangers' lives. I need to grow myself before a lot of that can happen. I feel that Nathan and I help each other a lot. He got a new car, so there is less stress for him. Life is getting better.

I need to remember that everything will be okay.