Nathan asked me to marry him! I am the happiest woman in the world, and I'm still in shock. It feels like a dream.
It's not the typical story where the man goes out and gets flowers and takes her out to dinner and says sweet nothings in her ear and then asks her to be with him forever.
Mine was different.
Nathan came over after working all day, and we were both tired and I was slightly irritable. We went to the mall to pick up his tux for his friend's wedding this Sunday. It was more than he expected, and he was in a foul mood after that. After we got back home to my house, we sat on the couch and broke down in tears. Both of us. I had started to give up on the thought of being engaged based solely on the fact that we don't have enough money to live together after the fact. Nathan felt awful, and I felt awful and we cried and cried. I told him I wanted nothing more than to marry him, but I just didn't see it happening anytime soon because of our situation. I told him we could go to the courthouse and get married and that I didn't need special. He told me that he didn't want that for me. He wanted to see me walk down an aisle in a dress and be his wife. We cried and cried.
Finally, we were both spent from crying, hugged and said I love you'd and he left. About 2 minutes later, I heard someone unlocking the door. I thought maybe he forgot something, and I guess in a way he did.
He came in and got on the floor. Both knees, mind you, and crying, asked me if I would marry him. I couldn't even think straight. I just started crying. I couldn't breathe! All I saw was this amazing man that I loved holding a gorgeous ring, all for me. I said yes.
The rest of the night involved calling parents and grandparents and informing everyone on Facebook.
It still feels like a dream. I'm his FIANCÉ. I'm going to be his WIFE. He picked me and I picked him. We are going to be forever together. Family.
I am beyond words as to how I feel. I hear Nathan call me his fiancé and I smile so big it hurts my cheeks. I look at the beautiful ring on my finger and think about how much he must have saved up and for how long. How long he must have known that he wanted to marry me, and I smile huge again.
Even though it wasn't an engagement like in the movies, I couldn't have asked for a better one. After seeing me angry, and bare faced, and unkempt with bloodshot, soaked eyes, he asked me to spend the rest of my life with him. In that raw, vulnerable state, he saw me for me at one of my worst times, and he still wanted me. He didn't even wait a day after picking that ring up. He wanted me to be his, and he didn't hesitate.
Knowing that makes me love him more than any kind of wedding could ever symbolize. But we can sure try.
In a little more than a year, I will be Mrs. Nathan O'Brien, and God couldn't have blessed me with a better man to spend the rest of my days with.
Congrats and that is a beautiful ring!
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