i'm happy

SO HAPPY!

I can't even really put into words just how happy I am, but I will certainly try.
I had a terrible week about two weeks ago. School was killing me, and killing my relationships with everyone. I just needed something to dig me out of this depressive slump that I was in. I had tons and tons of things on my mind that just piled up into a big mess. I'm talking seriously apathetic and depressive. It was sad.

So, I decided I needed time to myself. Last week was Spring Break, and I went to Savannah with my bestie for a couple of days. I had a ton of fun and took some photos and ate good food and listened to good music and enjoyed the perfect weather. I kept seeing couples and getting sad. At this point I hadn't seen Nathan in 4 days. It doesn't seem that long, but we left on a not so great note because of my stressed out craziness, and I missed him like crazy. I was still hoping and praying for that "thing", whatever that was, to pull me out of the slump.

Enter Nathan O'Brien.

We spent the next 3 days together, essentially starting over. Learning things we never knew about each other, people watching in Helen, holding hands, just being with each other and listening to jazz, making up stories, laughed. Laughing. That's the best sound to my ears. We hummed and sang and tried new food and went antiquing and didn't waste a moment with each other.
We went to my favorite coffee shop in Sautee and played mancala and drank coffee. I listened to Nathan play on the guitar. I couldn't stop smiling. I fell in love again.

I feel more alive and happy than I have in a long time. I have that feeling like when we first started dating and I couldn't wait to hear from him. We fell in love again. His laugh makes me laugh and smile and I just want to hold him forever. God brought us together, and we are both determined to keep it that way, and knowing that brings me the most peace I could ever ask for.

I am in love with this man.