summer nights in spring

I have been on a "diet" for 6 days now. I'm not calling it a diet though because even though it's really hard, I feel so much better about eating better! I've been "calorie counting" for 6 days straight now with NO cheating! It's been great! Hopefully I can stay this way! Once I get to where I want to be I will be able to eat to "maintain" which means more calories allotted for my mouth.

My sweetest boyfriend got me a grill yesterday! It's a little baby tabletop grill, and he grilled some hot dogs up and I made onions and mushrooms and corn and heated up some sauerkraut and it was the best! I have a feeling we will be grilling a lot! Then we did mad libs while we ate and hung out on the couch. It's only the best thing ever. I have a feeling that this will be my favorite Summer yet. :)

I had a crazy day in clinicals today, school is about to get mondo hard and taking up a bulk of my time, and it's almost Nathan's birthday! I have to find him something! Ok, I have homework to do.

I'm happy, it's warm, and I'm in loooooooooovvvvveee!

hot

It's March. It's hot.

If that's any indication of what this summer is going to be like, then it's going to be awful!
I need to go camping and go to Six Flags and go hiking and all of those outdoorsy things before it gets crazy hot.

I know I keep saying it, but I have GOT to get back into church. For tons and tons of reasons. I am feeling myself becoming more and less of the person I want to be at the same time. I'm growing up, but I need to get back to church. My mind wanders to things that it shouldn't or things that just aren't good to worry about, and it never used to. I need to fill my brain up with healthy love and God things.

There are just things that I see everyday that make me really sad. Cheaters, liars, murderers, etc. Sex things everywhere, violent things everywhere... it just makes me want to run away into the mountains and get rid of my tv! How things have changed. Sure, things like this happened before, but it wasn't publicized or offered out for everyone ever to see. I just feel like the only place I am safe is in church, and I'm falling away from that. I want to have a super healthy relationship with God and a healthy relationship with Nathan and a healthy family when I decide to have one. The world is a scary, sad, awful place. I sometimes wonder if there are any good people left. Even the "good" ones that I know aren't, really. I know no one is perfect, and I am certainly not, but there are just some things that are so sad... People hurting other people and all that. It makes my heart hurt.

Back to church I go, and hopefully to stay.

i'm happy

SO HAPPY!

I can't even really put into words just how happy I am, but I will certainly try.
I had a terrible week about two weeks ago. School was killing me, and killing my relationships with everyone. I just needed something to dig me out of this depressive slump that I was in. I had tons and tons of things on my mind that just piled up into a big mess. I'm talking seriously apathetic and depressive. It was sad.

So, I decided I needed time to myself. Last week was Spring Break, and I went to Savannah with my bestie for a couple of days. I had a ton of fun and took some photos and ate good food and listened to good music and enjoyed the perfect weather. I kept seeing couples and getting sad. At this point I hadn't seen Nathan in 4 days. It doesn't seem that long, but we left on a not so great note because of my stressed out craziness, and I missed him like crazy. I was still hoping and praying for that "thing", whatever that was, to pull me out of the slump.

Enter Nathan O'Brien.

We spent the next 3 days together, essentially starting over. Learning things we never knew about each other, people watching in Helen, holding hands, just being with each other and listening to jazz, making up stories, laughed. Laughing. That's the best sound to my ears. We hummed and sang and tried new food and went antiquing and didn't waste a moment with each other.
We went to my favorite coffee shop in Sautee and played mancala and drank coffee. I listened to Nathan play on the guitar. I couldn't stop smiling. I fell in love again.

I feel more alive and happy than I have in a long time. I have that feeling like when we first started dating and I couldn't wait to hear from him. We fell in love again. His laugh makes me laugh and smile and I just want to hold him forever. God brought us together, and we are both determined to keep it that way, and knowing that brings me the most peace I could ever ask for.

I am in love with this man.

pray

i need a pride and prejudice moment to happen.
i'm praying for answers.
i need peace.

Tornadoes

First day of spring break and there have been tornado watches and warnings all night! I'm praying there are no more so I can sleep!

I get to see my Nathan tomorrow :) :) :)

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2 more friends engaged.

I'm in Kennesaw with my brother playing video games and mad libs.

I miss Nathan.

It's spring break.

2 more friends are engaged.
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