I have to be up in a few hours to "work" another LONG OB clinical and I can't sleep! Fantastic!
I can't sleep because I can't stop thinking about lots of things. Mostly good, awesome things. I am starting to read Captivating again, which is a super awesome book that reminds me of all the awesome ways that God is good to me. I got an email saying that my jewelry stuff got sent, so I am SUPER stoked about having something to work on. Nathan got me a little anvil to work on! Words cannot describe... he's just the best man I have ever known. I have work and a couple of tests this week that are stressing me out, but I'll make it work. I just want to be done with school so I can work in a hospital with new moms and babies and be happy. It's getting closer and closer to becoming a reality! Prayers and thank yous.
1.31.2012
1.28.2012
hobbies: yes please
I have been under an immense amount of stress lately. School, job issues, lack of boyfriend time, zits like I'm 13, roommate issues, family issues, and a general lack of time and sleep have all taken their toll on my general sense of well-being. I have toyed with the idea of starting a new hobby for awhile now, and I have been researching jewelry making. More specifically, silver ring making. Photography is fun, and I will always love it, but it takes a lot more time than I usually have, and the editing stresses me out more than it should. For funsies it's wonderful. For people, it's stressful, and that's what I'm trying to get away from, right?! So, onto silver ring making. I bought basic things. A ring mandrel, a soldering block, a mallet, various tools and tweezers, pickling solution, solder, a torch (which is probably the coolest thing ever), a dremel, and of course, silver. I am super excited to try this! (not really try... I'm GOING to make this work!) It helps to have an encouraging boyfriend, who is probably encouraging just so he doesn't have to see me cry/mood swing every time I see him... the poor man. But I am SO excited! I should get everything in a week or so and then I will begin :) I'm not trying for anything elaborate.. yet. Just basic silver bands, and then I'll grow from there! Setting stones would be wonderful, and engraving, and custom things, and an etsy shop would make me so happy! But that's far, far, far in the future, if it happens. For now, it is to make me happy again in between the stressful bits of adult life. Hopefully keeping my hands busy and playing with fire will help me out a lot. If anyone wants a ring when I get to making them, let me know, because I need practice!
Well, that's it really for now. Well, that and I really miss Nathan. He better wear some of my jewelry even if it's crappy ;)
Nite nite!
Well, that's it really for now. Well, that and I really miss Nathan. He better wear some of my jewelry even if it's crappy ;)
Nite nite!
1.26.2012
antiques are love
I used to hate antiques. I'd always bug my mom and tell her all that "old crap" was ugly. I mean, why would you want that when you can get something new instead?! I swore I would never like any of that. The clothes were ugly, the jewelry was ugly, the furniture was way too "old" looking... and now, I love it. I have become my mother.
I am all over Etsy all the time just looking at everything. Lately I find myself looking at everything vintage or vintage-inspired, and it just appeals to my heart. If it is an "antique" and belonged to someone else, somehow that appeals more to me. That item had a life way before mine, and I think about all of the things that it has "seen". That's someone else's old wedding ring that has seen tons of years of marriage, and someone else's chair that has been through many family dinners, etc. I just LOVE that. I wish I had things of my own that have been in my family for a long time. When we went up to New York this year, my grandma gave me a yellow gold ring with two little opals in it and two itty-bitty diamonds on the side. My grandpa had it made for my grandma when they first got married. That meant so much to me! I hope to pass it on to my daughter or daughter-in-law one day.
I am all over Etsy all the time just looking at everything. Lately I find myself looking at everything vintage or vintage-inspired, and it just appeals to my heart. If it is an "antique" and belonged to someone else, somehow that appeals more to me. That item had a life way before mine, and I think about all of the things that it has "seen". That's someone else's old wedding ring that has seen tons of years of marriage, and someone else's chair that has been through many family dinners, etc. I just LOVE that. I wish I had things of my own that have been in my family for a long time. When we went up to New York this year, my grandma gave me a yellow gold ring with two little opals in it and two itty-bitty diamonds on the side. My grandpa had it made for my grandma when they first got married. That meant so much to me! I hope to pass it on to my daughter or daughter-in-law one day.
1.23.2012
thoughts and love and things
Life as an adult is HARD.
What I wouldn't give to be a kid again with forever summers and no responsibilities and free food and housing, unlimited time with your friends, a bountiful imagination, a certain naivety that escapes us as we grow up, and zero stress. I wouldn't give up my sweetest boyfriend and best friend, Nathan, and I wouldn't give up my maturity and experience... but all of the kids stuff would be fantastic. I think about being a kid and it makes me want to cry because I will never have that EVER again. I probably spend an abnormally long amount of time thinking about when I was little, before tons of bad things happened in my life and the lives of others around me. Playing until it got dark, coloring, making up stories, having tea parties, playing hide and seek, super nintendo, and recording your favorite songs on TAPE off of the RADIO. And then, I think about how stupid I was when I was little and I couldn't wait to grow up.
Now, I am adult. I have school, hours upon hours of studying and less and less of sleep, stress coming from all directions, money worries, job worries, relationship strain, spiritual crises! Oh, the joys of being an adult. I can't complain though. I have learned a lot. I value so much in my life. I love my family, my friends that I meet everyday, my boyfriend, how much I've grown spiritually... All of this because I grew up.
I'm still super immature in some areas though... but that can't be helped. Right now I should be making more drug cards for OB, and studying for an OB test, and looking at GA legislative stuff regarding nursing, but here I am listening to Law and Order and blogging. Some things never change :)
Boyfriend and I had an awesome mountain date in the gloominess on Sunday. We went to a really cool antique store in Sautee, and went to the Sweetwater Coffeehouse and Nate got me a brownie that was mega super awesome, and we had chai teas and we played mancala and mushed and went to this other place in Helen but I can't remember the name and we got wings and listened to drunk people yell about football and came back home and cuddled and looked at wedding venues even though we aren't even engaged. But it was the best! I LOVE the mountain dates. LOVE them. I love the drive because I get to hold hands with Nate and sing and laugh and talk about everything under the sun. He's my best friend, and I'm so glad that he's mine!
I started my first OB clinical today! I got to feel the fundus of a postpartum patient and a patient at 20 weeks, I got to administer medication and give a Tdap shot, remove an INT, assess a postpartum patient, and I got to let a lady hear her fetal heartbeat with the doppler! It was an amazing day and further reaffirmed why I am busting my butt and crying and stressing over school. I will LOVE being a nurse!
I am so thankful for everything that I have in my life and how things have turned out. I remember being so stressed to get INTO nursing school, and now I have a semester under my belt and only 3 more to go until I am BSN Wilson. I got the externship at the hospital on the medical floor for the summer! I am SO nervous/excited. It will be a learning experience for sure!
Ok, I am going to go to bed I think. I have to be at the hospital at 6:30 tomorrow!
What I wouldn't give to be a kid again with forever summers and no responsibilities and free food and housing, unlimited time with your friends, a bountiful imagination, a certain naivety that escapes us as we grow up, and zero stress. I wouldn't give up my sweetest boyfriend and best friend, Nathan, and I wouldn't give up my maturity and experience... but all of the kids stuff would be fantastic. I think about being a kid and it makes me want to cry because I will never have that EVER again. I probably spend an abnormally long amount of time thinking about when I was little, before tons of bad things happened in my life and the lives of others around me. Playing until it got dark, coloring, making up stories, having tea parties, playing hide and seek, super nintendo, and recording your favorite songs on TAPE off of the RADIO. And then, I think about how stupid I was when I was little and I couldn't wait to grow up.
Now, I am adult. I have school, hours upon hours of studying and less and less of sleep, stress coming from all directions, money worries, job worries, relationship strain, spiritual crises! Oh, the joys of being an adult. I can't complain though. I have learned a lot. I value so much in my life. I love my family, my friends that I meet everyday, my boyfriend, how much I've grown spiritually... All of this because I grew up.
I'm still super immature in some areas though... but that can't be helped. Right now I should be making more drug cards for OB, and studying for an OB test, and looking at GA legislative stuff regarding nursing, but here I am listening to Law and Order and blogging. Some things never change :)
Boyfriend and I had an awesome mountain date in the gloominess on Sunday. We went to a really cool antique store in Sautee, and went to the Sweetwater Coffeehouse and Nate got me a brownie that was mega super awesome, and we had chai teas and we played mancala and mushed and went to this other place in Helen but I can't remember the name and we got wings and listened to drunk people yell about football and came back home and cuddled and looked at wedding venues even though we aren't even engaged. But it was the best! I LOVE the mountain dates. LOVE them. I love the drive because I get to hold hands with Nate and sing and laugh and talk about everything under the sun. He's my best friend, and I'm so glad that he's mine!
I started my first OB clinical today! I got to feel the fundus of a postpartum patient and a patient at 20 weeks, I got to administer medication and give a Tdap shot, remove an INT, assess a postpartum patient, and I got to let a lady hear her fetal heartbeat with the doppler! It was an amazing day and further reaffirmed why I am busting my butt and crying and stressing over school. I will LOVE being a nurse!
I am so thankful for everything that I have in my life and how things have turned out. I remember being so stressed to get INTO nursing school, and now I have a semester under my belt and only 3 more to go until I am BSN Wilson. I got the externship at the hospital on the medical floor for the summer! I am SO nervous/excited. It will be a learning experience for sure!
Ok, I am going to go to bed I think. I have to be at the hospital at 6:30 tomorrow!
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