better days!

The last post was emo. I admit it. I just missed my Nathan, and although I still hate his job, the traveling season is almost over and I hope that I can handle it.

The past few days were fantastic! I got to dress up like a hipster Hogwarts kid (Slytherin, because it's where I belong... with my Snape) and Nate did the same, except he did Gryffindor (which is pretty okay too). We got to hang out with friends and eat delicious food and play games and laugh a lot.

I love him :)

In character...

Sunday we had a lazy day and I tried to carve the Snitch from Harry Potter (it came out kind of okay...) and Nate has an in-progress troll face. Not a real troll face, but an internet troll face. Then we watched Law and Order SVU because that's what I always do, and we laughed and cuddled and mushed and ate and I MADE AN 80 ON MY NURSING TEST. Which pretty much made my whole night (besides being with Nathan, because he always makes all of my nights). *sappiness ahead* The more I spend time with Nathan, the more I realize that I am overwhelmingly in love with him. *end sappiness*

I have approximately one month and a week or so of class left. Let's keep the prayers coming in strong along with those words of encouragement, because I need everything that I can get. I am so thankful for what I have and I need to be more thankful for it. I owe it all to God and the thoughts and prayers from all of my wonderful friends and family. I have the best boyfriend that anyone in this entire world could ever wish for, a super supportive family, wonderful friends, a job, and a wonderful God that is watching over me. I really don't have it so bad when I think about it that way ;)

I just can't wait for Thanksgiving break! I get to eat delicious stuffing and green bean casserole and it'll be cold, and I can wear sweaters and boots and jeans and I get to hang out at the mall at midnight for Black Friday and I get to be with my boyfriend and his family and my family and I get a break from school (kind of) and and and... it will be glorious!

Anyway, things are looking up, and I am so ready and grateful for them!

i hate his job

the end.

Also, I'm a brunette again. I need to stick with this because I always dye it and miss it!

sleepy

It's only 6:30 in the afternoon and I am exhausted.

I have been feeling really "down" about my weight lately. I don't know why. I haven't really fluctuated or anything, I am just blah. I have been trying to eat better, but I haven't weighed in awhile. I wish I had time to work out... or the drive to work out. I am just so tired after school and work! Then I have to study and cook food and I want to spend time with my Nathan... ugh. I dunno. I just want to be super tiny, but I am just not built that way. I wish I could be content and feel beautiful. I feel that at 25 I should be pretty confident and comfortable in my own skin, but I'm not. It's not that I have bad outlying factors involved. No one tells me I'm unattractive or fat, and Nathan is just the best about trying to make me feel beautiful, but I don't feel beautiful, and that's all the difference.

Enough emo.

I''m ready for my boyfriend to come home and give me hugs, but I'll have to wait.

in this twilight

I really love this song. I want to find a good stripped down version without all the noise (but that is that NIN sound).


*edit*
I found a pretty cool stripped down version (that I like more than the original). <3 <3 <3 <3
I love Trent's voice when he sings sings. <3