sleepy

It's only 6:30 in the afternoon and I am exhausted.

I have been feeling really "down" about my weight lately. I don't know why. I haven't really fluctuated or anything, I am just blah. I have been trying to eat better, but I haven't weighed in awhile. I wish I had time to work out... or the drive to work out. I am just so tired after school and work! Then I have to study and cook food and I want to spend time with my Nathan... ugh. I dunno. I just want to be super tiny, but I am just not built that way. I wish I could be content and feel beautiful. I feel that at 25 I should be pretty confident and comfortable in my own skin, but I'm not. It's not that I have bad outlying factors involved. No one tells me I'm unattractive or fat, and Nathan is just the best about trying to make me feel beautiful, but I don't feel beautiful, and that's all the difference.

Enough emo.

I''m ready for my boyfriend to come home and give me hugs, but I'll have to wait.