Things are still good. :)
I met hipsterjack's best friends (and their wives) last night, and they were awesome! I love where we are headed, and I am really glad for everything that God has put into my life, including this man. I have an interview tomorrow for Nursing school, but I am going to pray about it hard. I would rather go to Piedmont I think, and my mind is pretty much made up. However, having a choice would be nice. Yeah, prayers are needed.
I don't know what else to say! I am thankful for everything right now. I mean, I always am, it is just coming in waves now. :)
THANK YOU GOD
4.14.2011
4.09.2011
Sweet Progress.
Well, life has been going pretty swimmingly lately. I feel immensely blessed!
In an update from last month, I will probably go to the nursing school that accepted me, but I have an interview at another one on Thursday! Choices are always better than being forced to go one way without a say, so I'm still excited. :)
My dad is sober now and doing well. I'll continue to pray about that! My mom loves her job and her boss treats her wonderfully and with respect, which is something she wasn't used to having worked for huge corporations. My brother is still my brother and doing brotherly things.
My love life has take a good turn. I am still dating the hipsterjack guy, which is going extremely well. I met his family last night for his birthday. :) I am in puppy love for sure. OH! He is not going to Chicago! My prayers were answered, and it seems that I am doing something right because God wanted him to stay for some reason or another. This guy... he is just the best. We get along amazingly, he's sweet, smart, and super talented. I can't wait to see where this takes me. :)
School is... school. I am getting burnt out again. I guess 2 years straight of school will do that to you. Just 2 more and I'll be done and making money and living on my own! (Unless the world implodes in 2012, in which case my degree won't matter and all of my stress would have been for naught.) Algebra is kicking my butt, and it's so hard to make it to my 9:00 class in the morning.Work is decent. I have to work a lot lately which cuts into study time at school (which drives me insane) and date time (which helps me keep my sanity), so I will have to see. This week though I have 4 days off after Monday! Tuesday I have to meet Hipsterjack's best friends and their wives. We aren't "officially" boyfriend/girlfriend yet, but I like where it's going. :)
All in all, things are going really well besides the fact that I am physically and mentally drained.
In an update from last month, I will probably go to the nursing school that accepted me, but I have an interview at another one on Thursday! Choices are always better than being forced to go one way without a say, so I'm still excited. :)
My dad is sober now and doing well. I'll continue to pray about that! My mom loves her job and her boss treats her wonderfully and with respect, which is something she wasn't used to having worked for huge corporations. My brother is still my brother and doing brotherly things.
My love life has take a good turn. I am still dating the hipsterjack guy, which is going extremely well. I met his family last night for his birthday. :) I am in puppy love for sure. OH! He is not going to Chicago! My prayers were answered, and it seems that I am doing something right because God wanted him to stay for some reason or another. This guy... he is just the best. We get along amazingly, he's sweet, smart, and super talented. I can't wait to see where this takes me. :)
School is... school. I am getting burnt out again. I guess 2 years straight of school will do that to you. Just 2 more and I'll be done and making money and living on my own! (Unless the world implodes in 2012, in which case my degree won't matter and all of my stress would have been for naught.) Algebra is kicking my butt, and it's so hard to make it to my 9:00 class in the morning.Work is decent. I have to work a lot lately which cuts into study time at school (which drives me insane) and date time (which helps me keep my sanity), so I will have to see. This week though I have 4 days off after Monday! Tuesday I have to meet Hipsterjack's best friends and their wives. We aren't "officially" boyfriend/girlfriend yet, but I like where it's going. :)
All in all, things are going really well besides the fact that I am physically and mentally drained.
3.13.2011
Blessed!
Well, I just got home from spring break. It was the first one that I have ever been anywhere on. My brother and I and 3 of his friends decided that Key West would be fun, so we went there and had a super wonderful relaxing trip even though it took 14 hours each way. :/
I got some awesome news and some sad news while on "vacation". I got accepted to nursing school, which eases a bit of stress from my mind and adds some at the same time (now I have to find an apartment, etc.). BUT I got accepted, and I am that much closer to being able to help people! On a sad note, a friend that my brother and I knew and went to church with committed suicide. It's so sad. I hadn't talked to him in years, but my brother said that he was really depressed the last time he saw him. It's so sad that someone feels that they need to do something like that to ease their pain. I am praying for his family.
The earthquake in Japan is sad as well and I've been praying a lot for them. My cousin is in the navy and they are stationed over there. I just pray that the nuclear power plants don't explode. :(
I am still seeing my hipsterjack guy, and no word on Chicago yet. I can only continue to pray that he can stay and find a job here, especially since me getting accepted into nursing school will put me much closer to him. I get to see him Wednesday and I am so excited. We both talked for hours the entire time we were both on vacation. I really like this man.
My dad is in New York for 3 weeks to visit my grandma. She adopted a dog today from a last chance rescue, and I am so happy for her that I could cry. I know that having something to take care of will help her in dealing with my grandpa's passing. I pray for her and my dad a's well.
So, all in all, a lot of praying has been going on. I have to be at work at 7 this morning and I can't sleep! I'm praying God will help me stay awake at work! ;)
Until something else awesome happens,
Adios!
I got some awesome news and some sad news while on "vacation". I got accepted to nursing school, which eases a bit of stress from my mind and adds some at the same time (now I have to find an apartment, etc.). BUT I got accepted, and I am that much closer to being able to help people! On a sad note, a friend that my brother and I knew and went to church with committed suicide. It's so sad. I hadn't talked to him in years, but my brother said that he was really depressed the last time he saw him. It's so sad that someone feels that they need to do something like that to ease their pain. I am praying for his family.
The earthquake in Japan is sad as well and I've been praying a lot for them. My cousin is in the navy and they are stationed over there. I just pray that the nuclear power plants don't explode. :(
I am still seeing my hipsterjack guy, and no word on Chicago yet. I can only continue to pray that he can stay and find a job here, especially since me getting accepted into nursing school will put me much closer to him. I get to see him Wednesday and I am so excited. We both talked for hours the entire time we were both on vacation. I really like this man.
My dad is in New York for 3 weeks to visit my grandma. She adopted a dog today from a last chance rescue, and I am so happy for her that I could cry. I know that having something to take care of will help her in dealing with my grandpa's passing. I pray for her and my dad a's well.
So, all in all, a lot of praying has been going on. I have to be at work at 7 this morning and I can't sleep! I'm praying God will help me stay awake at work! ;)
Until something else awesome happens,
Adios!
3.02.2011
Pouring.
I was reading this Bible app that I have today, and the plan that I started reading really hit close to home. It read:
"Psalm 6:6
This is just what I needed to read concerning my situation with my guy. I need to let God take control of the situation. I know that God will do what he will, and that it will turn out how it is supposed to. I feel like I really have met someone that is just amazing, and we have so much in common. I asked God today why this was happening, and in all honesty, I am mad. I am mad that after so long, something good finally comes along, and He is taking it away from me again. I know that I shouldn't be mad at God, or mad in general, but after so long and so many broken pieces of my heart, I just wish that it would work out. I PRAY that it will work out. Maybe I should be thinking of it in a matter of "well if he really liked me then he wouldn't leave to take a job somewhere so far away", but I can't be like that. Like myself, I do want the best for him, and if it's in Chicago, even though my heart would be broken, then so be it. I feel like it will happen, because I am going on Spring Break for a week, and he will be in another place during the same time, and it's like God is preparing me for letting go. I just want a wonderful love, and when my heart starts to fill with it again, to have it ripped from me AGAIN, I just don't know what would happen.
I know that I am pretty solid individual, and I read somewhere that what doesn't kill you really does make you stronger, but my heart can only take so much. He said to me today that the whole thing weighs heavy on his head/heart. I know he likes me, and I like him. It is the first time in a long time that I have felt that way. It is the first time in a long time that I have been able to stifle urges of mistrust. Most importantly, it is the first time that I have been really HAPPY in a long long long long long LONG time. I mean, truly happy.
My friend who introduced me to the church that I visit when I have time, actually told me that she made a list of the perfect man that God could give her, and about 2 weeks later she met her now husband. I took her advice and made a list. This guy fits my list. It is the first time that I had ever shared that list with anyone, and he fits it. Perfectly. It is amazing. I feel like it is a gift. He is a gift. I met him for some reason. GOD made me meet him for some reason. I feel like he is an answer to my prayers, and I just don't want him to leave. I do not at all. It is easier for me to type these things than it is for me to say them. This is my being honest with God. This is my outpouring of how bad I want this. I want to fall in love and be happy and have a pure love not based on sex. I want what he is giving me. I could say that I love this man, as a person. Not in love, the kind where you freak someone out by saying it, but the love that I have for my dearest friends. (and now I think I understand how he meant that we were friends; it just clicked). I love his soul, his personality, his warmth, his compassion. We cried together, and we held each other.
I just want this to last, and I want this to be wonderful. The money doesn't matter to me. I want him around. I just pray so hard right now that this will work out as a compromise. Dear Lord, can he please stay and can he please get a job here? Please. Here in Georgia so that we can be all around happy. That would be the greatest thing ever. :) I love you and Amen.
"Psalm 6:6
Pouring out his heart with tears, David was completely honest with God. We can be honest with God even when we are filled with anger or despair because God knows us thoroughly and wants the very best for us. Anger may result in rash outward acts or turning inward toward depression. But because we trust in our all-powerful God, we don't have to be victims of circumstance or be weighted down by the guilt of sin. Be honest with God, and He will help you turn your attention from yourself to Him and His mercy."
This is just what I needed to read concerning my situation with my guy. I need to let God take control of the situation. I know that God will do what he will, and that it will turn out how it is supposed to. I feel like I really have met someone that is just amazing, and we have so much in common. I asked God today why this was happening, and in all honesty, I am mad. I am mad that after so long, something good finally comes along, and He is taking it away from me again. I know that I shouldn't be mad at God, or mad in general, but after so long and so many broken pieces of my heart, I just wish that it would work out. I PRAY that it will work out. Maybe I should be thinking of it in a matter of "well if he really liked me then he wouldn't leave to take a job somewhere so far away", but I can't be like that. Like myself, I do want the best for him, and if it's in Chicago, even though my heart would be broken, then so be it. I feel like it will happen, because I am going on Spring Break for a week, and he will be in another place during the same time, and it's like God is preparing me for letting go. I just want a wonderful love, and when my heart starts to fill with it again, to have it ripped from me AGAIN, I just don't know what would happen.
I know that I am pretty solid individual, and I read somewhere that what doesn't kill you really does make you stronger, but my heart can only take so much. He said to me today that the whole thing weighs heavy on his head/heart. I know he likes me, and I like him. It is the first time in a long time that I have felt that way. It is the first time in a long time that I have been able to stifle urges of mistrust. Most importantly, it is the first time that I have been really HAPPY in a long long long long long LONG time. I mean, truly happy.
My friend who introduced me to the church that I visit when I have time, actually told me that she made a list of the perfect man that God could give her, and about 2 weeks later she met her now husband. I took her advice and made a list. This guy fits my list. It is the first time that I had ever shared that list with anyone, and he fits it. Perfectly. It is amazing. I feel like it is a gift. He is a gift. I met him for some reason. GOD made me meet him for some reason. I feel like he is an answer to my prayers, and I just don't want him to leave. I do not at all. It is easier for me to type these things than it is for me to say them. This is my being honest with God. This is my outpouring of how bad I want this. I want to fall in love and be happy and have a pure love not based on sex. I want what he is giving me. I could say that I love this man, as a person. Not in love, the kind where you freak someone out by saying it, but the love that I have for my dearest friends. (and now I think I understand how he meant that we were friends; it just clicked). I love his soul, his personality, his warmth, his compassion. We cried together, and we held each other.
I just want this to last, and I want this to be wonderful. The money doesn't matter to me. I want him around. I just pray so hard right now that this will work out as a compromise. Dear Lord, can he please stay and can he please get a job here? Please. Here in Georgia so that we can be all around happy. That would be the greatest thing ever. :) I love you and Amen.
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