6.26.2012
6.23.2012
whirlwind!
Life since getting engaged to my best friend life has been crazy busy!
We both have realized how expensive weddings are and how easily the cost can add up. However, we have found a beautiful venue :) We are getting married next October at Densmore Farms in Cleveland, GA. It's BEAUTIFUL! The barn is amazing and totally DIY, the areas surrounding it is beautiful with trails... we love it! I have been on the search for the perfect photographer.
If there is any one thing that I want to spend money on, it's a good photographer. After it's all said and done, that is the only real evidence that we will have of that day (besides us and our wedding rings)! I found a fantastic cinematographer and someone to do makeup AND my dress. Oh, I wish I could describe it, but my husband to be will read and will know and we can't have that. :)
We both have realized how expensive weddings are and how easily the cost can add up. However, we have found a beautiful venue :) We are getting married next October at Densmore Farms in Cleveland, GA. It's BEAUTIFUL! The barn is amazing and totally DIY, the areas surrounding it is beautiful with trails... we love it! I have been on the search for the perfect photographer.
If there is any one thing that I want to spend money on, it's a good photographer. After it's all said and done, that is the only real evidence that we will have of that day (besides us and our wedding rings)! I found a fantastic cinematographer and someone to do makeup AND my dress. Oh, I wish I could describe it, but my husband to be will read and will know and we can't have that. :)
6.13.2012
I'm ENGAGED
I never thought I'd say it! Ever!
Nathan asked me to marry him! I am the happiest woman in the world, and I'm still in shock. It feels like a dream.
It's not the typical story where the man goes out and gets flowers and takes her out to dinner and says sweet nothings in her ear and then asks her to be with him forever.
Mine was different.
Nathan came over after working all day, and we were both tired and I was slightly irritable. We went to the mall to pick up his tux for his friend's wedding this Sunday. It was more than he expected, and he was in a foul mood after that. After we got back home to my house, we sat on the couch and broke down in tears. Both of us. I had started to give up on the thought of being engaged based solely on the fact that we don't have enough money to live together after the fact. Nathan felt awful, and I felt awful and we cried and cried. I told him I wanted nothing more than to marry him, but I just didn't see it happening anytime soon because of our situation. I told him we could go to the courthouse and get married and that I didn't need special. He told me that he didn't want that for me. He wanted to see me walk down an aisle in a dress and be his wife. We cried and cried.
Finally, we were both spent from crying, hugged and said I love you'd and he left. About 2 minutes later, I heard someone unlocking the door. I thought maybe he forgot something, and I guess in a way he did.
He came in and got on the floor. Both knees, mind you, and crying, asked me if I would marry him. I couldn't even think straight. I just started crying. I couldn't breathe! All I saw was this amazing man that I loved holding a gorgeous ring, all for me. I said yes.
The rest of the night involved calling parents and grandparents and informing everyone on Facebook.
It still feels like a dream. I'm his FIANCÉ. I'm going to be his WIFE. He picked me and I picked him. We are going to be forever together. Family.
I am beyond words as to how I feel. I hear Nathan call me his fiancé and I smile so big it hurts my cheeks. I look at the beautiful ring on my finger and think about how much he must have saved up and for how long. How long he must have known that he wanted to marry me, and I smile huge again.
Even though it wasn't an engagement like in the movies, I couldn't have asked for a better one. After seeing me angry, and bare faced, and unkempt with bloodshot, soaked eyes, he asked me to spend the rest of my life with him. In that raw, vulnerable state, he saw me for me at one of my worst times, and he still wanted me. He didn't even wait a day after picking that ring up. He wanted me to be his, and he didn't hesitate.
Knowing that makes me love him more than any kind of wedding could ever symbolize. But we can sure try.
In a little more than a year, I will be Mrs. Nathan O'Brien, and God couldn't have blessed me with a better man to spend the rest of my days with.
Nathan asked me to marry him! I am the happiest woman in the world, and I'm still in shock. It feels like a dream.
It's not the typical story where the man goes out and gets flowers and takes her out to dinner and says sweet nothings in her ear and then asks her to be with him forever.
Mine was different.
Nathan came over after working all day, and we were both tired and I was slightly irritable. We went to the mall to pick up his tux for his friend's wedding this Sunday. It was more than he expected, and he was in a foul mood after that. After we got back home to my house, we sat on the couch and broke down in tears. Both of us. I had started to give up on the thought of being engaged based solely on the fact that we don't have enough money to live together after the fact. Nathan felt awful, and I felt awful and we cried and cried. I told him I wanted nothing more than to marry him, but I just didn't see it happening anytime soon because of our situation. I told him we could go to the courthouse and get married and that I didn't need special. He told me that he didn't want that for me. He wanted to see me walk down an aisle in a dress and be his wife. We cried and cried.
Finally, we were both spent from crying, hugged and said I love you'd and he left. About 2 minutes later, I heard someone unlocking the door. I thought maybe he forgot something, and I guess in a way he did.
He came in and got on the floor. Both knees, mind you, and crying, asked me if I would marry him. I couldn't even think straight. I just started crying. I couldn't breathe! All I saw was this amazing man that I loved holding a gorgeous ring, all for me. I said yes.
The rest of the night involved calling parents and grandparents and informing everyone on Facebook.
It still feels like a dream. I'm his FIANCÉ. I'm going to be his WIFE. He picked me and I picked him. We are going to be forever together. Family.
I am beyond words as to how I feel. I hear Nathan call me his fiancé and I smile so big it hurts my cheeks. I look at the beautiful ring on my finger and think about how much he must have saved up and for how long. How long he must have known that he wanted to marry me, and I smile huge again.
Even though it wasn't an engagement like in the movies, I couldn't have asked for a better one. After seeing me angry, and bare faced, and unkempt with bloodshot, soaked eyes, he asked me to spend the rest of my life with him. In that raw, vulnerable state, he saw me for me at one of my worst times, and he still wanted me. He didn't even wait a day after picking that ring up. He wanted me to be his, and he didn't hesitate.
Knowing that makes me love him more than any kind of wedding could ever symbolize. But we can sure try.
In a little more than a year, I will be Mrs. Nathan O'Brien, and God couldn't have blessed me with a better man to spend the rest of my days with.
6.11.2012
the best day ever!
I was going to put the Spongebob song on here, but decided against it, as it's annoying.
But seriously. Yesterday.
Yesterday kind of ended up being more of a trial run of a day in married life... and I loved every minute of it.
I woke up super early, called Nathan and we made plans to go to church! I hadn't been in a long time, and we kept talking about going together. I love Andy Stanley, and in Athens there is a "satellite" church where he basically preaches through a live feed. We went there, held hands and sang and listened together, and we decided we were going to do it every Sunday! It was great! Going to church and having God in our lives is a huge deal to both of us, so it's comforting having that AND enjoying ourselves.
We went grocery shopping, and ate lunch together and ate cupcakes (I HAVE GOT TO GET BACK ON MY DIET TODAY!) and cuddled and told each other how much we loved each other. By this point it was only like 2:30 and I was having the best day in the entire world. Then, Nathan was really awesome. I mean, really.
I had to do online Spanish work (which is extremely hard considering that I don't remember very much from Spanish 1 since I took it in a month like 2 years ago...) and while I was doing that, Nathan cleaned my entire house and my car. And when I say cleaned, I mean CLEAN. Everything was off of the floor, my laundry was done, my car was cleaned out and he organized my myriad of nursing books and makeup and everything else that made a home in there. He put a shelf up in my bathroom for towels, put a picture frame up, cleaned my counters in my bathroom, organized everything. I mean... forget flowers and chocolate, this man has my heart. I couldn't believe it! I felt awful because everything was so messy (I can let things get pretty bad before I feel inclined to pick up a mess). He told me not to worry about it and that he liked to do it and that he loved me. And then I melted and decided that he was my forever boyfriend and I love him. (I knew that already, but this mega sealed the deal)
Then we cuddled some more and talked a lot about how the day was kind of like being married and we both liked that while we were doing separate things, we were still together, and that was all we needed. It made me feel better that we don't always have to be "doing" something and still be together. It was wonderful. We both got what we needed to get done done, and I still got to kiss my best friend a whole lot. Perfecto.
I never want him to leave, so I don't like to write about those parts, but after he left I slept the best sleep I have slept in a long, long time. A super long time! And with a wonderful day like that, it couldn't have been anymore perfect.
Also, more Pinterest stuff. And cupcakes.
But seriously. Yesterday.
Yesterday kind of ended up being more of a trial run of a day in married life... and I loved every minute of it.
I woke up super early, called Nathan and we made plans to go to church! I hadn't been in a long time, and we kept talking about going together. I love Andy Stanley, and in Athens there is a "satellite" church where he basically preaches through a live feed. We went there, held hands and sang and listened together, and we decided we were going to do it every Sunday! It was great! Going to church and having God in our lives is a huge deal to both of us, so it's comforting having that AND enjoying ourselves.
We went grocery shopping, and ate lunch together and ate cupcakes (I HAVE GOT TO GET BACK ON MY DIET TODAY!) and cuddled and told each other how much we loved each other. By this point it was only like 2:30 and I was having the best day in the entire world. Then, Nathan was really awesome. I mean, really.
I had to do online Spanish work (which is extremely hard considering that I don't remember very much from Spanish 1 since I took it in a month like 2 years ago...) and while I was doing that, Nathan cleaned my entire house and my car. And when I say cleaned, I mean CLEAN. Everything was off of the floor, my laundry was done, my car was cleaned out and he organized my myriad of nursing books and makeup and everything else that made a home in there. He put a shelf up in my bathroom for towels, put a picture frame up, cleaned my counters in my bathroom, organized everything. I mean... forget flowers and chocolate, this man has my heart. I couldn't believe it! I felt awful because everything was so messy (I can let things get pretty bad before I feel inclined to pick up a mess). He told me not to worry about it and that he liked to do it and that he loved me. And then I melted and decided that he was my forever boyfriend and I love him. (I knew that already, but this mega sealed the deal)
Then we cuddled some more and talked a lot about how the day was kind of like being married and we both liked that while we were doing separate things, we were still together, and that was all we needed. It made me feel better that we don't always have to be "doing" something and still be together. It was wonderful. We both got what we needed to get done done, and I still got to kiss my best friend a whole lot. Perfecto.
I never want him to leave, so I don't like to write about those parts, but after he left I slept the best sleep I have slept in a long, long time. A super long time! And with a wonderful day like that, it couldn't have been anymore perfect.
Also, more Pinterest stuff. And cupcakes.
6.10.2012
6.09.2012
psuedo-anniversary
It's Nathan's and my one-year-and-four-month anniversary today, and I am ever the most thankful to God for him more and more as these little milestones come and go. He's the best, sweetest, caring, amazing, loving man ever. This song that I posted last time means so much. I love it, and it completely embodies what he does to me!
He wants to sing it together and that scares the everything out of me! But I promised I'd at least hum it today, so I guess I'll give it a try. I just hate to hear myself sing! Unlike my wonderful songbird boyfriend, I am not musically gifted. At least not in the ways that I would like! Everyone in my family is musically talented. My dad, mother, and brother can all play guitar and sing. I cannot. I can play 4 notes on a ukulele. That's all! I guess you have to start somewhere :)
I have no idea what we are doing today, but I love him and I will love everything we will do, even if it's just walking around downtown or relaxing around the house! We were talking about weddings last night (and every time we say we won't, we do!) and Nathan wants the fox invites:
Other things on Pinterest that suit my fancy:
I just noticed that I tend to color coordinate even if it's by accident.
Cheers!
He wants to sing it together and that scares the everything out of me! But I promised I'd at least hum it today, so I guess I'll give it a try. I just hate to hear myself sing! Unlike my wonderful songbird boyfriend, I am not musically gifted. At least not in the ways that I would like! Everyone in my family is musically talented. My dad, mother, and brother can all play guitar and sing. I cannot. I can play 4 notes on a ukulele. That's all! I guess you have to start somewhere :)
I have no idea what we are doing today, but I love him and I will love everything we will do, even if it's just walking around downtown or relaxing around the house! We were talking about weddings last night (and every time we say we won't, we do!) and Nathan wants the fox invites:
I just noticed that I tend to color coordinate even if it's by accident.
Cheers!
6.07.2012
yesterday
Yesterday was wonderful! Nathan and I texted (text?) all day and I got back on a regular sleep schedule! But what's better than that was we went to dinner, sang the Avett Brothers, kissed and cuddled in the restaurant like love birds, and I cheated on my diet (It was delicious. I forget what real food taste like sometimes), and then when we came home we had REAL blackberry cobbler that Nathan made for me! (It's extra special because he has battle wounds from fire ants and bushes because he PICKED them himself out of his yard -- What a man!)
It was delicious, and we cuddled until almost midnight, and then we had to say goodbyes. I hate those!
I get to see him again tonight for dinner at his house with his parents and Saturday is our one year and four month anniversary! It feels longer, and yet at the same time not as long as that. I love this man. We have gone through a lot together in this year and almost 4 months, and we have grown a lot. I see it a lot in Nathan. He has surprised me so much. He's sweet, and honest, and amazing, and always doing little sweet things for me, and he's grown into quite the man.
I like the words to this song. My boyfriend could sing it better, I think (and not as twangy).
I saw this cool thing from Pinterest from Wedding Chicks where you can make your own little monogram/initial iPhone paper, so of course I had to do it. Here it is! (and me getting ready for our date night out).
It was delicious, and we cuddled until almost midnight, and then we had to say goodbyes. I hate those!
I get to see him again tonight for dinner at his house with his parents and Saturday is our one year and four month anniversary! It feels longer, and yet at the same time not as long as that. I love this man. We have gone through a lot together in this year and almost 4 months, and we have grown a lot. I see it a lot in Nathan. He has surprised me so much. He's sweet, and honest, and amazing, and always doing little sweet things for me, and he's grown into quite the man.
I like the words to this song. My boyfriend could sing it better, I think (and not as twangy).
"Elegant and soft
Feminine as you ought
One with earth and one with God
Won't you please forgive me
Won't you please forgive me
As the daylight sinks
As I fail to stop and think
Once I cursed the things I've done
Won't you please forgive me
Won't you please forgive me
Young bride take my name
Burn the questions burn the shame
You don't have to live by them
Won't you please forgive them
Won't you please forgive them
Sleep well when the night time falls
Wait 'till morning when I call
Don't believe the bad you saw
Won't you please forgive them
Tenderness and grace
How you've come this place
However dangerous or safe
I'll find within you
I'll find within you"
Feminine as you ought
One with earth and one with God
Won't you please forgive me
Won't you please forgive me
As the daylight sinks
As I fail to stop and think
Once I cursed the things I've done
Won't you please forgive me
Won't you please forgive me
Young bride take my name
Burn the questions burn the shame
You don't have to live by them
Won't you please forgive them
Won't you please forgive them
Sleep well when the night time falls
Wait 'till morning when I call
Don't believe the bad you saw
Won't you please forgive them
Tenderness and grace
How you've come this place
However dangerous or safe
I'll find within you
I'll find within you"
OMG, and this one:
I saw this cool thing from Pinterest from Wedding Chicks where you can make your own little monogram/initial iPhone paper, so of course I had to do it. Here it is! (and me getting ready for our date night out).
6.06.2012
6.05.2012
6.03.2012
knights
Yesterday Nathan, my brother, my mom, and myself indulged in the Renaissance fair in Atlanta. It was so fun! I had been the year before with my brother, but it was better with everyone :) I ate a giant turkey leg and funnel cake straws and a deep fried Oreo! Nate got knighted and got real good at archery, my brother got an ocarina, my mom got a souvenir shirt, and I got a little head crown flower thing that Nate picked out and a little flag from the joust... jousting? I dunno, but it was fun despite my sunburn and perpetual full belly.
I weighed today and I'm down to 128! Crazy considering my goal was 135. Now it's 125, and I'm almost there! It's bizarre that I can't eat how I used to anymore. The sheer amount of food that I ate was... American. I loved every bit of it! Food is wonderful, and it's taken me a LONG time to learn that you can indulge in small quantities. It was just hard to retrain myself after 25 years of eating tons and tons of food.
Anyway, then Nate and I drove home and talked about everything ever pretty much. The day before yesterday was a rough one after a misunderstanding, and being able to understand one another yesterday made me happy. I have learned what a wonderful person Nathan is. I mean, I already knew, but things he told me that he didn't have to solidifies that and really helps me get over my trust hump that I can't seem to fully get over. (I have been cursed with not being able to trust a soul with my heart and it's taking time to try to not live that way!) We talked about family, God, marriage, morals, values... everything. It made me cry, in a good way. Then I got home and Nathan told me to check my mail. He had written me a letter that made me super cry again, in a good way.
I am so blessed to have him and I never ever want to be without him. He is my best friend and my heart and I can't thank God enough for placing us together. I love him.
I love him.
I love him.
I love him.
I love him.
I weighed today and I'm down to 128! Crazy considering my goal was 135. Now it's 125, and I'm almost there! It's bizarre that I can't eat how I used to anymore. The sheer amount of food that I ate was... American. I loved every bit of it! Food is wonderful, and it's taken me a LONG time to learn that you can indulge in small quantities. It was just hard to retrain myself after 25 years of eating tons and tons of food.
Anyway, then Nate and I drove home and talked about everything ever pretty much. The day before yesterday was a rough one after a misunderstanding, and being able to understand one another yesterday made me happy. I have learned what a wonderful person Nathan is. I mean, I already knew, but things he told me that he didn't have to solidifies that and really helps me get over my trust hump that I can't seem to fully get over. (I have been cursed with not being able to trust a soul with my heart and it's taking time to try to not live that way!) We talked about family, God, marriage, morals, values... everything. It made me cry, in a good way. Then I got home and Nathan told me to check my mail. He had written me a letter that made me super cry again, in a good way.
I am so blessed to have him and I never ever want to be without him. He is my best friend and my heart and I can't thank God enough for placing us together. I love him.
I love him.
I love him.
I love him.
I love him.
6.02.2012
different
I feel... different.
Timid, skittish, scared, overwhelmed, emotional.
I don't know what to do/think/feel.
God gave me good news and then put this burden on my heart.
I can't sleep, even though my eyes hurt.
I need something.
Timid, skittish, scared, overwhelmed, emotional.
I don't know what to do/think/feel.
God gave me good news and then put this burden on my heart.
I can't sleep, even though my eyes hurt.
I need something.
6.01.2012
this makes me the happiest girl in the world
No more traveling :)
God has answered my prayers! It may have taken a year, but it happened! After all the tears and worrying, God was taking care of us this whole time.
God has answered my prayers! It may have taken a year, but it happened! After all the tears and worrying, God was taking care of us this whole time.
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