I had an incredible day in clinical today. I got to hold babies and squeeze babies and touch babies and burp babies and I love the babies. It's what I want to do.
Then my belly started hurting and I was late for work (almost an hour and a half). I have previous seriously almost deathly history with belly hurts, so I am worried about that. I'm praying its just irritated and will go away.
I need my Prince Charming (fiancé) to hold me close and tell me everything will be ok and carry me away from the hurt and to a little cozy castle cabin where we can live together forever and I can be on his royal health insurance so I can go see the doctor. Dear Lord please make this happen and make my belly okay.
Also I have to be up at 5:45.
With no fiancé in sight.
Saddest day.
It seems like when you really need someone, they aren't there. Not on purpose (or maybe), but it just sucks when you're in pain and there's no one to make you feel ok :(
11.05.2012
11.04.2012
Ahh November.
I can't believe it's November. I think I said the same thing for October, but really, this semester of nursing school is almost over, Thanksgiving is approaching, and then soon Christmas and my trip to Florida! And New Years! And then... the beginning of the worst 6-7 months of my life. The home stretch of nursing school. Oy.
It's only the 4th and it hasn't been entirely the best month so far. Nathan and I had a fantastic weekend that ended horribly. Fighting is the worst. I felt the worst that I have ever felt, I think. Some things were said that I didn't think I'd ever hear, from both sides. Do we still love each other? Yes. But sometimes I just don't understand why things have to escalate. When you're a little kid all your parents have to do when you're upset it pick you up and hold you and tell you everything is okay. And it is. I just wish that instead of words, that's what would happen to me.
So needless to say, I have been stress eating all day. It's unfortunately what happens when I am upset/clueless. I hate it.
So, I have been looking online at wedding things and house things for my first real home and Christmas things that I want, but cannot have. Ahh life. (I am totally registering at Anthropologie for my wedding, my babies, and anything else I can register for).
It's only the 4th and it hasn't been entirely the best month so far. Nathan and I had a fantastic weekend that ended horribly. Fighting is the worst. I felt the worst that I have ever felt, I think. Some things were said that I didn't think I'd ever hear, from both sides. Do we still love each other? Yes. But sometimes I just don't understand why things have to escalate. When you're a little kid all your parents have to do when you're upset it pick you up and hold you and tell you everything is okay. And it is. I just wish that instead of words, that's what would happen to me.
So needless to say, I have been stress eating all day. It's unfortunately what happens when I am upset/clueless. I hate it.
So, I have been looking online at wedding things and house things for my first real home and Christmas things that I want, but cannot have. Ahh life. (I am totally registering at Anthropologie for my wedding, my babies, and anything else I can register for).
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Skyla Bedding |
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Marseille Coverlet |
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Toecap Treasure Flats  |
10.15.2012
Fair fun!
Nathan came back! I am happy and whole again!
We spent Friday celebrating at Longhorn (yummy!) and then we went to the Fair with my mom and brother. We ate boiled peanuts (a first for me (and last)), pizza, corn dogs, ice cream, funnel cake, a turkey leg, and onion rings! Nathan won me a chihuahua (we found out it was actually Desperaux, but I am still calling him chihuahua), a banana, and a cat picture that says "I love you" in Comic Sans. Good, hokey fair fun! He also got me a cowboy hat for novelty value. We rode the Ferris wheel and another ride where I laughed my butt off out of terror. Seriously. It was wonderful!
This is our Fall Break at school until Wednesday, but I have a test Wednesday, and I have to work Tuesday, so I really only get one day off. Lame.
Anyway, I am probably going to meet Nathan for lunch at work today (since it's almost 1 in the morning), and clean my house a bit!
Nothing super exciting, but updates nonetheless.
We spent Friday celebrating at Longhorn (yummy!) and then we went to the Fair with my mom and brother. We ate boiled peanuts (a first for me (and last)), pizza, corn dogs, ice cream, funnel cake, a turkey leg, and onion rings! Nathan won me a chihuahua (we found out it was actually Desperaux, but I am still calling him chihuahua), a banana, and a cat picture that says "I love you" in Comic Sans. Good, hokey fair fun! He also got me a cowboy hat for novelty value. We rode the Ferris wheel and another ride where I laughed my butt off out of terror. Seriously. It was wonderful!
This is our Fall Break at school until Wednesday, but I have a test Wednesday, and I have to work Tuesday, so I really only get one day off. Lame.
Anyway, I am probably going to meet Nathan for lunch at work today (since it's almost 1 in the morning), and clean my house a bit!
Nothing super exciting, but updates nonetheless.
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| Ferris wheel love! |
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| :) |
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| Me and my mom! |
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| This corn dog was suggestive... |
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| Me and my prizes that my fiance won for me :) |
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| My NEW BOOTS! <3 |
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| Nathan with the Fox. Also getting the "bunny fingers". |
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| One of our photos from In Sienk Photography! |
10.08.2012
October!
It's October!
Tomorrow is one of Nathan and my anniversaries! 1 year and 8 months! We both remarked the other day how it seemed like a lot longer than that, and not in a bad way! Nathan is gone on business for a week, so I will be alone :( Tomorrow I have to ride around with Hospice for the day in Cumming, so I am going home to see my Mum tonight ;)
We had an incredible weekend of tears (good ones that brought relief!) and fun! First to talk about is pre-marital counseling. Incredible! While scary and hard at times, it really makes you dig deep into yourself as an individual to make your union as a couple stronger! Nathan and I are pretty "ahead of the game" since we are pretty open about our own issues and don't deny anything, and I am so thankful to God for that. We already had a really open communicative relationship, but this is just making things even better. I find myself telling Nathan things that would normally be really hard or embarrassing and finding that he doesn't judge me and he listens to me and offers reassurance and advice; something that we all need I think. I have seen him grow so much in just these 2 sessions that it's incredible. I was always proud of him, but I think he is becoming someone that HE can be proud to be, which is amazing.
After we left, we decided to go on an impromptu date to a corn maze! It was so fun! When we go out, Nathan and I have more than often "kid dates" which are the most fun! We can go eat Mexican and bring Mad Libs and laugh at the table all night, sit at home and watch things that make us laugh, tickle each other, or in this case, go to a corn maze and eat all kinds of cheap (awesome) food! We didn't get lost in the corn maze (which was kind of sad... we both wanted to! I have found that I actually have a pretty good sense of direction.) but we did take some pictures and kiss and see Moo Moos and eat cheap nachos and drink Capri Sun and Nathan even got a giant pixie stick that was as long as his leg. We were going to watch the movie on the lawn, but it was Mission Impossible... 4 I think? And we wanted to watch a kid movie. Afterwards, we drove around and took in rural Georgia. We sang in the car all the way home, and then we went to Olive Garden where we both got the never-ending pasta bowl (alfredo of course) and stuffed our faces and talked about marriage and love and being together forever. It was wonderful!
Yesterday we watched an awesome message by Andy Stanley about the "right" way to pray, which I am trying to take into practice! Then we dropped two big old bags of my clothes off to Goodwill, managed not to buy anything, eat a big ol' stromboli at Sbarro at the mall, walk around and hold hands, then went home and watched The Nightmare Before Christmas. Then I cried a whole, whole lot because I am going to miss my Nathan like crazy! He comes back Friday. It is Monday. I want to fast forward time!
It's gloriously chilly outside, and I don't want to go to work. However, since I might have to miss it tomorrow, I probably should go in. Gotta save up for this wedding (which will be in a year soon!).
I have a test this week and lots of paperwork due, but next week is Fall Break! Hallejulah!
That's all. XOXOXO.
Tomorrow is one of Nathan and my anniversaries! 1 year and 8 months! We both remarked the other day how it seemed like a lot longer than that, and not in a bad way! Nathan is gone on business for a week, so I will be alone :( Tomorrow I have to ride around with Hospice for the day in Cumming, so I am going home to see my Mum tonight ;)
We had an incredible weekend of tears (good ones that brought relief!) and fun! First to talk about is pre-marital counseling. Incredible! While scary and hard at times, it really makes you dig deep into yourself as an individual to make your union as a couple stronger! Nathan and I are pretty "ahead of the game" since we are pretty open about our own issues and don't deny anything, and I am so thankful to God for that. We already had a really open communicative relationship, but this is just making things even better. I find myself telling Nathan things that would normally be really hard or embarrassing and finding that he doesn't judge me and he listens to me and offers reassurance and advice; something that we all need I think. I have seen him grow so much in just these 2 sessions that it's incredible. I was always proud of him, but I think he is becoming someone that HE can be proud to be, which is amazing.
After we left, we decided to go on an impromptu date to a corn maze! It was so fun! When we go out, Nathan and I have more than often "kid dates" which are the most fun! We can go eat Mexican and bring Mad Libs and laugh at the table all night, sit at home and watch things that make us laugh, tickle each other, or in this case, go to a corn maze and eat all kinds of cheap (awesome) food! We didn't get lost in the corn maze (which was kind of sad... we both wanted to! I have found that I actually have a pretty good sense of direction.) but we did take some pictures and kiss and see Moo Moos and eat cheap nachos and drink Capri Sun and Nathan even got a giant pixie stick that was as long as his leg. We were going to watch the movie on the lawn, but it was Mission Impossible... 4 I think? And we wanted to watch a kid movie. Afterwards, we drove around and took in rural Georgia. We sang in the car all the way home, and then we went to Olive Garden where we both got the never-ending pasta bowl (alfredo of course) and stuffed our faces and talked about marriage and love and being together forever. It was wonderful!
Yesterday we watched an awesome message by Andy Stanley about the "right" way to pray, which I am trying to take into practice! Then we dropped two big old bags of my clothes off to Goodwill, managed not to buy anything, eat a big ol' stromboli at Sbarro at the mall, walk around and hold hands, then went home and watched The Nightmare Before Christmas. Then I cried a whole, whole lot because I am going to miss my Nathan like crazy! He comes back Friday. It is Monday. I want to fast forward time!
It's gloriously chilly outside, and I don't want to go to work. However, since I might have to miss it tomorrow, I probably should go in. Gotta save up for this wedding (which will be in a year soon!).
I have a test this week and lots of paperwork due, but next week is Fall Break! Hallejulah!
That's all. XOXOXO.
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| Beautiful North Georgia! |
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| That's my bug! |
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| Moo Moos <3 |
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| Partially pictured are our children snacks. |
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| Us :) |
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| Nathan's first Melting Pot trip! Delicious! |
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| Probably my favorite of us from the day :) |
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| Tango's welcome home present. |
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| New haircut/trim! Grow hair grow! |
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| King of the kiddie straw bales. |
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| "I am The Batman" |
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