Christa W, BSN, RN

This will be my title one day.
For now, I have completed exactly one day of Nursing school, and it was pretty daunting. I feel like there will be a lot of studying and crying and being on the brink of giving up, but I will prevail because I have a ton of supportive people in my life and prayer. I was doing pretty okay until I started looking at Pharmacology... but I don't have that class until tomorrow so I'll find out, I'm sure. There were quite a few people in the classes that I was in that failed in the Summer, so that's not exactly inspiring. I just have to stick with studying and reading and not get behind. Updates soon. For now, I have a date with a cute boyfriend that is going to cook me a burger and play me songs on the guitar.

i carry your heart with me...

I love e.e. cummings. I like that he writes in lowercase and that his format is weird. My favorite poem is his most famous, "i carry your heart":

"i carry your heart with me(i carry it in

my heart)i am never without it(anywhere

i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done

by only me is your doing,my darling)

                                                      i fear

no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want

no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)

and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant

and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows

(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud

and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows

higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)

and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)"

In true love-stricken-like-a-teenager fashion, I thought of this poem today because I've been with my sweetest boyfriend for 6 months. And because I am the biggest sap ever, I decided to blog about it. He's the best and this is the happiest I have been in years and years. I love his family, his friends, his soul, and everything he is about. He's the most genuine, sweet, honest person I have ever met and I am very blessed to call him mine. I hope to write about us again in another 6 months, and many months after that. He's the best thing that's ever been placed into my life, and I am very thankful for him. He makes me laugh and fall more in love with him everyday. He's my everyday present from God :)

Basically, I love my Nate.

<3

 

 

 

Things and Things

I have survived a full week in my new house! I haven't met my roommate yet, but I am hoping it works out (since I'm stuck here for a year either way!)

Nate and I will have been together for 6 months tomorrow! [let's see if he remembers... ;)] I can say that this is the happiest and most comfortable I have ever been in my whole life, and I am loving every minute of it. I have been blessed! These 6 months have flown by super fast... except for July. The entire month of July I didn't work, or go to school, so it dragged on. I have noticed lately that I really like being "busy". Whether it's just running errands or school or work or boyfriend time :) I'm looking forward to school for sure. I'm ready for these 2 years to fly by so I can actually be a nurse and make money and start a "family" (whatever that means).

I'm still counting down until the big 25. Guh... Not looking forward to that! I feel old already, and I don't need a number to further verify that. I think that I just feel so "behind" because I'm still in school, not married, etc. Maybe when I graduate I'll feel better, like I've gotten back on track and caught up. I'm not comparing myself to other people individually I guess (because there are certainly people out there who I would not want to exchange life paths with) but I suppose as a general whole. I'll get over it.

Up late...

Well, I'm sitting up in my new house in Athens :)

It's really bizarre living on my own. I like it, but it's taking some getting used to. I'm closer to my boyfriend, which is awesome, and I'm super close to school which is another plus.

I'm going to be 25 soon... stress city! I feel so old and unaccomplished! I'm hoping these 2 years of school will fly by (God willing).

My trip to Florida was fun. I saw family I never get to see, and I sat in the sun, and I got to go to Harry Potter World, which was amazing (but, I super missed my Nate). He taught me a new ukulele strumming pattern tonight! :)

I need to go to bed. I have a long day tomorrow!