Bizarre

My sleep schedules are so bizarre.

I just kept having dreams about camera lenses and eating beef jerky. So I woke up and ate some beef jerky. At least it's only 100 calories per bag!

I have a clinical tomorrow for only like 5 hours, but I have to play with a bunch of children! Oy! God has been blessing me by way of my photography. I love Him and the opportunities He is bringing me. I have to remind myself that this is from Him, and it is the sweetest thing. Nathan has been a wonderful support as well. I think we are both carrying each other in the right direction of where we want to be. I can't wait to hear Nathan's music!

I CANT SLEEP

I've got clinicals from 6-6 tomorrow but I can't sleep. Benedryl, come to my rescue!

I have passed all of my tests so far in Nursing school.
I have a few PAID weddings booked.
I have the best man in my life.

Nathan got me The Pioneer Woman's cookbook and I love it! I can't wait to make something hearty out of there!

It's been a little weird lately. My life that is. Insecurity has sprouted up around me, but not necessarily IN me as I am used to. It's refreshing to feel that others feel the same way about things, and it's refreshing to make other people understand what you were feeling. I have been praying a lot lately. Never as much as I should, but I am trying. I am trying to be a happier, fuller person. It's working.

Nathan brings so much light into my life. I can't wait to marry him! He is my partner, standing beside me! Never behind or in front of me. He is my inspiration, my motivation, and I value him so much! He has really lifted me out of some dark times. For that, and every other reason, I am so grateful!

Prayers all around for everyone.
Especially those in crisis.You know who you are.

Anniversary

Today marks 2 years since Nathan and I first met! First date went a little like this: I got ready about 2 hours ahead of time. I took the time to super straighten my then long hair, and put my pretty girl makeup on. We were going to meet somewhere in the halfway point from where we both lived - about 70 miles away from each other. We were set to meet at Starbucks, the perfect first date spot! I went to Barnes and Noble and got a table in the Starbucks nearest the window so I could see him in real life from afar before we met. See, we met online. I got a text some time later asking where I was. I was at the wrong Starbucks. Mortifying! He said he would come to me (what a gentleman) and I got to see him from 2 stories up walking to meet me. I had a butterfly circus going on in my belly! He came in with his hands nervously in his pockets and sat down. That was the beginning of forever. It gives me goosebumps and brings tears to my eyes to think about that. That was our last first date ever! God had us in mind from the start, and it is a wonderful feeling. It hasn't been the easiest 2 years. We have had some severe losses and hardships, but we have also grown a lot and made a lot of things happen together too. Life has been hard lately. Money problems, life problems, work problems... but we will overcome everything together! I am so happy to call Nathan my fiance, and I cannot WAIT for him to be my husband. I have lucked out with the sweetest, most thoughtful, manly, handsome, funny, strong, caring man in the entire world. I have been blessed.

For Nathan

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