christmas and the end of my break and things

Christmas was wonderful! Santa was very good to me and my brother and my mom! My boyfriend gave me the best presents ever :) I got 2 copper bracelets that were stamped with "always" and "until the very end" (sweet and from Harry Potter!) which are my favorite! I got a bunch of other stuff as well, like the rad Mucha jewelry box that holds said bracelets :)

6 of my friends got engaged on either Christmas eve or Christmas day. Oy vey. It's a little disheartening when that happens. Two of my best friends have babies already! (Although I'm definitely not even thinking about that yet), but marriage, yes! I've probably wanted to marry my boyfriend before we even said "I love you" to each other! All in good time I guess, I'm just jealous! I want to be done with school and enjoying married life, but it's all a waiting game now!

Speaking of nursing school... I have to start back in a few days and I am definitely not ready or looking forward to it. I just want to be done! I feel like I've been saying that I have a year and a half left forever now, but I really only have about a year and a half left! Ok, nap time.

merry christmas!

:) it's time for bed!

worst day in years...

I feel pretty worthless, ugly, deceived, and used. ;(

time...

It seems like there isn't enough time in the day while at the same time, sometimes at least, there is all the time in the world.

It seems that it was October and then I blinked and when I opened my eyes it was December. It's awesome and bad at the same time. I feel rushed. I leave for New York Tuesday morning and I haven't had a chance to pack yet! It doesn't seem so bad, but I have to work all day tomorrow, wrap a few presents that I haven't gotten to yet, and drive 2 hours back home to spend the night so that it will be easier to leave to go to the airport in the morning. Oy.

I am excited though. I don't really like planes though, which is weird because I didn't have a problem with them until a trip (which I can't even remember which one it was or how long ago, weird) but we hit turbulence and I thought I was going to have a heart attack and teet in my pants I was so scared. Now when I board a plane, I am grasping the seat for dear life the entire flight. I pray and pray and pray and pray. It's just not the way I want to go. You know, screaming in terror and being able to realize my horror before I either get crushed to death or burn alive in an airplane explosion or suffocate going hundreds of miles per hour, miles in the sky. No thanks. BUT, that being said, I am SO very excited to share New York with Nate. I have never been into the city myself. It's always been the Island. So, this time, we are going to spend a majority of time on the Island, but we are going to be brave tourists and venture into the city for the day. Hot dog vendors, THE TREE, (maybe) iceskating, photos, shopping... all of it! It will be fun, I think. Even if we get lost, it will be a fun story later...

I still have a little "cold", although it has gone from my throat into my sinuses and now I can't breathe. It probably didn't help that I went home this weekend and because my mom is in mid-move, my bed was gone. I had to make a makeshift bed on the ground with blankets. Kind of like camping, except more like what I imagine jail cots are like, except worse. And I kept waking up gasping for breath in the middle of the night because my mouth would close or I would wake up drooling all over myself OR I would be in pain and need to roll over because my prison cot felt like a prison shiv in my back.

Anyway, I'm excited. No work, no school, no worries and lots of boyfriend and family time for 6 days. I can't wait!

christmas break!

I feel like I'm 14 (or any age below like, 18) again and school has let out! Except for now I have to work a full-time job until school starts back... but no bother! For in 4 days I will be on a plane to Long Island the visit family and venture into the city with my sweetest boyfriend and brother (I know I wrote that last time). My tonsils are real big and hurting at my head has that "sick" feeling this morning. At least it held off until after finals, right?

I better get ready for work.

tomorrow

Tomorrow is the last day of my first semester of nursing school. I have learned a lot, both academically and about myself. I learned that it is very possible for me to cave under pressure, that I stress eat/sleep, that crying is not beneath me, that sometimes C's are okay if that's what you get after studying for hours on end, that friends who are struggling with you are the best kind of support, that good teachers make all the difference, and I have learned to appreciate every moment with people in your life during free time (which is very little). In my short 2 clinicals I learned that older people need compassionate people to care for them, and that state run nursing homes need to be regulated better. The things I saw broke my heart. Maybe one day I can help change some of that. I am so excited about next semester! OB, med/surg, and mental health! I feel like this will be a hard semester, but it will be one of my favorites because the material is so interesting!

I should be studying pharmacology. I really should. I will, I just can't seem to cram anymore information about drugs into my brain at the moment. I also have an interview for my internship at Athens Regional for the summer tomorrow. I hope I do well!

I get to go to New York on Tuesday with my brother and my love! I am so so so excited! Depending on when Nathan's last present gets here (it better get here soon...) that's when we will do our Christmas. So maybe Monday, or maybe we will wait until Christmas. I just can't wait!

So many things are happening to people around me (in good ways) and I am just so happy for it! Engagements, babies, work being found, better grades... life is good :) As always I'm still very blessed to have the most supportive boyfriend in the entire world ever. He's carried me through some tough times this semester and I love him even more for it. His encouragement keeps me going when all I want to do is cry and give up. I love him to death!

I'm going to try and study now...

it's december!

What?! Oh man.

Well, I love it! I have most of my Christmas shopping done and finals are next week. I should be studying, but instead I am watching Law and Order/photo editing/blogging/pinteresting/looking for ideas for my next photoshoot. (I want to do a 50's themed Christmas shoot with my love)

Nathan and I got a tree! It's my first ever and our first, and it's wonderful and real and pretty and it has our initials on it :)

Here's Bub, loading it up!

:)

Here's the end result! <3

I love love love Christmas! It's my favorite. In like 2 weeks I get to go to New York and see my Dad and Grandma and Nathan and I want to venture into the city! :) So. Excited!